Discipline

 Hola! 

It's been awhile, and I hope this finds everyone well and or, WORKING towards their wellness.  2022 IS coming up and it should and shall be the beginning of not only a New, Free World.  However truly it should BE the beginning of a New, Free You. 


So, I've been going through it.  


As you know if you've read this site, the husband has is asymptomatic of bulbar ALS.  Meaning; he has all of the symptoms of bulbar ALS however, nothing registers ON the needles test.  And hes been diagnosed as this since Feb 2013.  


Weve come to a head within our relationship as many of the causes behind his physical impediments HE CAUSED.  And as such, he was teaching these traits to our son.  Leading him into a life of dependence.  And that dependence would be on me (a parent's goal, imho, should always be to teach your child to HAVE THE ABILITY to stand on their own two feet.  No matter what.  Even the UK's former page 6 girl, Katie Price has said that in regards to her son Harvey, who was born with many difficulties.  My son, wasnt). 


Anyway.  One thing that has become ABUNDANTLY CLEAR TO ME for behavioral modification to occur (aside from all the steps I've already mentioned here) is DISCIPLINE.  Daily discipline.  


And what is DISCIPLINE?  


DISCIPLINE is doing what's right, your routine even when no one is watching.  Doing it even without fanfare.  Doing it because YOURE looking.   Because God is looking.  


My husband has problems washing his hands, using ashtrays, garbage cans.  But he'll put on a show when others are looking and then you'll go into his area and it's a chitshow.  Niggardly.  And by niggardly I mean as The Quran states; someone who is ok with living in filth and in their filth.  And why?  Bc there is no God higher than them.   SO AGAIN; we're right back to Step 1, having a relationship with God. 


My husband has LOVED to tell me for well over a decade that, "I've done nothing with my life," and this has frustrated me tremendously.  However I've done something he certainly cant and couldnt do, I've changed myself and am constantly growing BECAUSE I AM DISCIPLINED and that is what I choose to do.  All the steps here; I do; DAILY;  cleaning, exercising, meditating.  Every day.  For that is how you get well. 


And usually THE ONLY person who WILL SEE IT AND HONOR YOU FOR IT; WILL ONLY BE YOU.  YOU AND GOD.  


*YOU ARE going to HAVE to be ok with that.  Again, having a solid knowledge and relationship with God, the Sole Creator is truly at the core of and IS the foundation of wellness. 


May Peace be Upon us all and SOON.  

I've nothing but love for all of you.  

Be well..stay safe, be STRONG and Jahwilling I'll see you soon.  




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