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Cleaning & Time

This isn't really a, "step," for me, because they're both things which are really, used or should be utilized, by everyone, everyday.

Cleaning, in my opinion, is paramount to getting and remaining well. It's symbolic to me, about how we feel about ourselves. 
For me, I like to wake up to the house feeling as if a maid just left. So, whatever I need to do the night before, I'll do, no matter how long it takes (it's 2:27 am and I just finished).  
I, looking back, certainly have gone through various degrees of what I found acceptable forms of cleanliness; from slight, to completely overboard, to where I am now, just right. And I think that's ok. 
While raising my kids, I incorporated daily chores, and would tell them, to think of our house as our ship.  A ship that we all need to help man.  My oldest son would often balk at making his bed daily, and keeping his room, tight.  He'd say, "No one else has to do this.  None of my friends have to ma…

Step 3: Getting Honest and Taking Responsibility

Some may say this could be Step 1, however, I can only say what worked for me, and for me, this fell into Step 3: getting completely honest with myself, and then, taking personal responsibility for my actions which led me to there (i.e.: the gutter, the streets, my deep heroin addiction).

Getting Honest
I was such a liar before I got sober.  I lied about everything, for so many reasons. I didn't lie all the time, but I'd certainly lie, and with ease.  
You cannot keep lying if you want to get sober, and change your life.   And most importantly, you cannot lie to yourself. 
Taking Responsibility
Getting honest with yourself, and taking personal responsibility for your actions, seem to me, to go hand in hand. 
There are those of us who can wallow is things which did happen to us, using those instances to JUSTIFY our abusing ourselves, abusing others, etc., but if you are to get sober, change your life for the better, you MUST ACCEPT YOUR OWN ROLE. 
In my own case, I had to take r…

Step 2: Writing Down Your Goals

Ok.  Once you've decided to give God a go, the next thing is to get a notebook, and write down your goals, no matter how crazy or farfetched they may be.

When I was in the Royan Motel, around when I asked God for forgiveness, I wrote out my three goals that I had at that time.  I believe they were; to get off heroin, get off the street (the royan hotel was a Gutter hotel, if you dig), and become the mom I always intended to be.  Definitely , "far fetched," if you were a fly on the wall at that time.  NONETHELESS, my theory at that time was, being as I still KNEW in the unseen, I felt that, all of those who were, "my angels," spirits, people I loved on the otherside, would be able to SEE exactly what I wanted, needed, desired, and would help me.  It was very much like a, "wind beneath my wings," theory.  Cheesy, I know, but, it worked. 
Oddly enough, many moons later, when I was well off the street, living soberly and in the suburbs, I was reading Jay…

Step 1 in Getting Well: You MUST Have Faith in God (The Sole Creator)

I know some people are going to have a problem with this, but I don't care.  Here's why, STEP 1, begins with having at the minimum, faith in God.  Because, without it, what would be the point in even trying to get yourself well?  If God, eternity, the soul, weren't anything but mythical legends, then how we live here, would not matter.  We could live f**ked up, all the time, till our hearts desired, poisoning our bodies, minds, etc, with ease, for, it would not matter.  Why would it, if the infinite wasn't real?

Now if you aren't living right, and are treating yourself like a garbage can with poisons, and poisonous behaviors, you probably don't care much for yourself.  So, finding God, is truly, the ONLY salvation.

When I started my actual incline, of climbing out of poisoning myself, I felt, that I already had a knowledge of God.  I knew, God was real.  I prayed every day, for little things, like for my then husband to come back safely from copping drugs (mes…

WELLNESS, WHICH IS HOLISTIC (in you), IS REALLY ENERGY HEALING (jacked from nora tellicat)

I have just begun learning about healing with energy.  And, have only recently realized, that I am back on the exact path I had initially been on when I began going to college.  I went to college, at the suggestion of a therapist I was seeing, to help me deal with what I was going through with my youngest daughter.  He, after learning of how I changed my life, so drastically, thought and said that, "people need to hear what you have to say.  But, no one will listen unless you, have three letters behind your name (PhD)," - his exact words.  So, after looking into what he thought I had done for myself, he suggested I take the path of Behavioral Medicine.  However, as you all know (if you've read this blog), I simply could not "jive," with the rest of those in the psychology field, professors included.  Which led me into criminal justice (there's been far more change and growth in that field as opposed to psy, and the people were nicer!  But as usual, I'v…

HEALING WILL AND HAS TO COME FROM WITHIN

Mind+Body+Spirit= The Holy Trinity of US, the individual.

It's also what is at "the core" of healing with energy, and wellness.

Here's what I want you to think about; IF the mind didn't have the power to HEAL, than riddle me the placebo effect.   Everyone I know, who is either pro or involved in Western medicine acknowledge the placebo effect, often to discredit healing with natural products, such as herbs. So, they must know and not doubt themselves the authenticity of the placebo effect.  Now once again, riddle me, how is OUR MIND, NOT OUR MOST POWERFUL ASSET?

may we all (myself included) try to have Faith in God and God's eternal love,
amen.

Enjoy the rest of your day!

~cara

GETTING WELL (reposted from nora tellicat)

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I just wanted to say, my kid just told me, "God is God.  God is energy.  God is the energy of Love." Cliche, but true, BUT, it is as simple as that.

I'm working on attaining my wellness coach certification.  I want to help others have what I have.  Get clean.

I'm "old" (er), but my theory is, and was proven true by my classmates, that there are those of us, battling addictions, things which if you can't "relate," you can't relate and we feel it.  It's my opinion that when we are trying to climb out of  hole so deep, it's unimaginable, to see a young, spring 25 year old chippy, who never battled ANYTHING (not to minimize their troubles, so maybe anything physical/noticeable)....I just think a battered old, grey dodge like myself may be more what they'd need.

I was a junkie/garbage can up until 12/1999.  I got clean because I literally got sick of waking up sick.  I know the progression (of climbing out of the hole).  I lived it…